“So Liam is your best friend now? Good to know.” I said. Alice smiled and hit my upper-arm softly.
“Hey, uh, different subject, what time are you done at school today?” Alice probably wanted to know because she wanted to go do something with me.
“That depends.” I replied.
“On what?” Alice already knew the answer to that question, but I guess she wanted to be sure.
“On who, you mean.” Okay, maybe she didn’t know the answer already, because she looked very irritated now.
“Are you kidding me?! You haven’t kicked her out yet?” Yes, definitely irritated.
“No, no one else can sing like her!” I forced myself to calm down. “Believe me; if we could find anyone even remotely as good as Selena, we’d kick her out in a second.” Selena was the singer of the band and she was a very good singer, but none of us really liked her. She was sadistic, sarcastic, cynical and rude among others. I think you can imagine why we wanted her out of the band. But like I said, one problem; we had no one to take her part.
“I believe you, but you can make music without a singer, you know?” Alice had brought this up before and I didn’t like it then and I didn’t like it now.
“Yes, you can, but it will never sound as good.” Music without lyrics just never got popular and if we’d ditch Selena, our band would become even less popular. Meaning; there wouldn’t be any fans left. Not something to look forward to.
“Why not hold auditions?” Another predictable suggestion from Alice.
“Because we just did and no one showed up.” I was getting very annoyed by this subject and I’m sure I let that reflect in my tone of voice.
“Okay.” Alice definitely noticed my annoyance, else she wouldn’t have dropped the subject this easily.
“I wish there was another option, but there just isn’t…” I paused for a couple of seconds. “Anyway, have you heard any good music lately?” I was done with the band trouble and this was the first I could think of to say.
“No, not really…” I guess the question caught her off guard, because Alice always had something to say about music. And if she couldn’t think of anything, she’d just start talking about either: Taylor Swift, Paramore, Glee or some Japanese band. “Well, just the usual, but I’ve bored you enough with that already.” Alice was clearly not entirely herself. Normally she was cheerful, almost annoyingly cheerful. “You?”
“Just the same old amazing songs.” I gave Alice a warm smile, but she didn’t even notice. The floor was apparently a lot more interesting than I was.
“Yeah, that one’s great.” Okay, now Alice wasn’t even paying attention to what I was saying, that was really unlike her.
“Alice,” I waited until she looked me in the eyes and continued, “are you okay?”
“I’ll be fine.” What was even more bothering than Alice having a hard time, was the fact that she didn’t want to talk about it with me.
“You can tell me anything, you know that, right?” I was incredibly concerned, but since I couldn’t make her tell me what was wrong, this was the next best thing.
“I know… Thanks.” I’d hoped to have Alice pour it all out to me, but I was getting the feeling this was bigger than I initially thought.
We stayed quiet for a very long time, which was unusual. Any other time, we wouldn’t have been able to stop talking and laughing. Could it be we were breaking apart as friends? We’d been friends for so long, maybe it was too long. She’d helped me process the death of my parents, maybe she didn’t want to do it anymore. I couldn’t really blame her for that, being around me every time I was depressed must have been hard on her as well. I hadn’t really thought about that until now, but I should have. Maybe I wasn’t a very good friend, not thinking about how it all must have affected my best friend.
“Hey,” Alice waved her hand before my eyes, “are you okay?”
I forced myself to smile and replied: “Yeah, I’m fine.” Alice looked doubtful, but didn’t ask further.
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